Missing the point
I’m starting to use the laptop the way I used to use the television. When I’m not at work I scan through my RSS feeds, not really reading anything, the bright screen keeping my attention away from the anxious parts of my life. Click, click, click. I like to think that the laptop is a tool for doing meaningful things, things that make me happy, but more often than not it’s just compulsion. Click, click, click. What’s worse, my attempts to distract myself have gotten more labyrinthian; Today I caught myself heading out the back door with a beer, a cigarette, two magazines, my Nintendo DS, and my laptop. wtf?
I’d say that it’s time to switch off for awhile, but I work on the internet and it’s just not an option. Besides, the laptop is just a tool, right? Like a pencil or a coffee grinder. However, a coffee grinder can’t distract you for hours at a time. At least not yet.
July 10th, 2006
July 12th, 2006 at 10:01 pm
What am I doing at 9:59 on a Wednesday night? I’m looking at everyone’s blogs, that’s what I’m doing. Sometimes it’s a form of escapism. I don’t know what I’ll do if I ever get a boyfriend and have to not be glued to my addiction 24/7.
July 14th, 2006 at 10:25 am
You think that’s distracting? Check this out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swIhbNeJlMQ
July 24th, 2006 at 5:27 pm
[…] Today marked my last Monday to myself (next week I go back to working Monday through Friday) and it was an oddly melancholy one. It should have been a decent enough day off, but something wasn’t quite right. After I took the lad to his bus stop I drove away under a bright blue sky. But I was listening to Low…and found myself crying quietly while remembering my dead. Oh the mood swings. In private I’m able to keep it in check less than some might guess but I’ve gotten pretty good at faking it in public. I got it under control and forced myself to move along, to take comfort in the mundane, the routine. First stop: the gym. Afterwards: the Apple Store. My precious powerbook, an all too constant companion since I obtained it last Fall, has been having some rough times too. And now we’ll be apart for a full seven days. I’m sure the powerbook will be just fine. Me on the other hand, well… […]
July 31st, 2006 at 4:13 pm
I fight it everyday, but increasingly find less to compel me on the internet. I am not into porn so that eliminates 87.7% of the internet. I prefer to buy my books and clothing at actual stores with actual people and whenever possible at establishment owned by people and not some cadre of stockholders I can never get a hold of when the ass in my jeans rips out on the first day. So, that eliminates another 10.3% of the internet. Until I figure out the Japanese leagues I can usually run through the baseball scores in all the minors and majors and any requisite news, and that is .05% of the internet. The other 1.95% is blogs and I only enjoy narcissists I know… so, what do you do when you are on the internet?